It's been awhile

It's been a while since my mom has seen me cry.

It's been a while since my dad had put his arm around.

It's been a while since I had someone not in a family that loved me.

It's been a while..........

It's been a while since I felt this low.

It's been a while since I saw my friends face when he left. I was wearing Pj's and he was in a suit.

It's been a while since I heard his laugh.............

Yeah it's been a long while........

I love my mom
I love my dad
I love you all so very much
I don't like being this low
I miss him so much
And I need another good laugh.....

Battles

Why.

Why do we fall in love if we know nothing is going to become of it. Why on earth do we let this sickening emotion take control of what we have to offer.

Why do we let this bastardize heart tell us what to do?!?!

I'm blinded by this think fog of things that I can't have, and things that I want. And I'm letting my heart with it's many pieces guide the way.

It's glass hands cut at mine as we stroll down this freeway of nails and splinters and I can't even get you to look at my way, unless I do something foolish.

I stayed up when no one else would. I'll listen to your laughter for a thousand times over and it will still sound new and beautiful.

Don't give up hope and don't give up faith. My heart tells me this as I puts another stone in my shoe.

Hope and faith are things I lost a long time ago. But you bring them along. And I'll buy them for any price that you may be selling them at. $1, $10, $100. I don't care.

I want it back in my life.

Add I thought that you would give it to me. But my heart deceived me back into the fog.

Mirrored

Look into my eyes.
When you're happy, I'm happy.
When you're sad, I'm sad to.

This is how I am.
When you're laughing, I'm laughing.
When you're hurt, I'm hurt.

I don't know why.
When you're smiling, I'm smiling.
When you're crying, I'm crying.

But I've always reflected.
When you're singing, I'm singing.
When you're destroyed, I'm destroyed.

But if you look one day and see that I have a crack in the glass.

Please, don't fix it.

Please, don't ask where it came from.

Please, don't touch it.

Please, let it stay there.

As long as I know that what I see is real,

Then I'll be happy

As long as I know that what I see is genuine

Then I'll be smiling

As long as I know that what I see is you,

Then I'll be me.

I'm only here to make sure that you are you. I'm only here to make sure that you are happy with what you have.
I'm only here... because I love you.

Poems by Bleach

"If you become a snake tomorrow,
and start to devour people

If you cry out that you will love me,
with that same mouth which has eaten those persons

In the end I wonder if I will be able to say
That 'I will love you', like I can today?"

"If you give me wings
I will soar for you

Even if this whole land
Sinks down to the water

If you give me a sword
I will fight for you

Even if this whole sky
Shoots through with your light."

"In my desperation, I'll dress myself up grandly
Even while knowing you'll cut me down

In my desperation, I'll polish myself to a shine
Even while knowing you'll cut me down

It was terrible, how it was terrible
When you once did just that

You lopped off my hair
And left me looking like you did when you died"

"We all
die as we are born.
We always find the end
before the beginning.

If to live
means to continually search for wisdom,
we'll find the end waiting after our last lesson.
To finally see the subtlety of the end
and understand it completely
is what it means to die.

We cannot help ourselves from growing wiser.
Those who are helpless to their search for knowledge
are those who cannot transcend death."

"Those who define love as beautiful
Are ones who don't know the true form of love

Those who define love as ugly
Are ones who bragging to know about love"

"The constant shower of the sun's mane
will erase the remaining footprints on the thin ice.

Don't be afraid to be deceived
for the world is already full of deception."

"Any one time we throw away pride
we take a step closer to becoming beasts.

Any one time we kill a heart
we take a step back from becoming beasts."

"If I don't wield the sword, I can't protect you.
If I keep wielding the sword, I can't embrace you."

"Even though I'm so young
Being as inexperienced as I am
I'm already worn out and ugly as if I'm weighed down by age
Those adults that are the absolute perfection
No matter how I look at it, they can't be forgiven "

"It is not terrifying to know sorrow.
Terrifying is to know you can't go back to happiness you could have."

"Mistakes are human's doings.
Murders are demon's doings."

"I envy because of the heart
I glutton because of the heart
I covet because of the heart
I am prideful because of the heart
I sloth because of the heart
I rage because of the heart
Because of the heart
I lust for everything about you"

Thoughts in a tree

While sitting in a tree, my mind is wondering,
They're cute,
I wish I could be like them
Life is starting
It's quiet up here
so many things I want to do with my life but none of them seem important right now
Life is stupid
Life sucks
Love is stupid
But love is the best
I don't want to go down.
Can I just live in this tree.
I better catch up with my friends.

Literally Right Now

Dessert

Maybe my soul's all wrong, but my body is alright. So why don't I fit into these gloves I call hands.

Maybe God didn't like the look of my face when he saw it. I wouldn't blame him, most of the time it's turned sideways.

Sometimes a big dog looks right into my eyes, and all I can say is, "I'm sorry" for usually he'll see nothing.

And my feet are dangling of the ground, tripping over the same step over and liver again.

At least my smile still makes people laugh.

Songs From a Room

Musically Challenged

Chorus:

As I lay my head
Next to you in bed
I want to get lost in your eyes
With you lips as my guide.

First verse....

First verse....

First verse....

CRAP! This always happens! I always think of the chorus before I think of the first verse. I think of it before the title pf the song. I think of it before the melody or before the harmony. And I only think of one part of the stupid chorus!

Chorus:

As I lay my head,
Next to you in bed.
I want to get lost in your eyes.
With your lips as my guide.
Come and hold my hand,
As we travel through this wonderland.
For the first time,
As husband and bride.

I have a little bit more. But what should the first verse be??????

Verse 1:

Darling come closer.
I know it's going to be alright.
Let's not worry about tomorrow.
Let's just worry about tonight.
And as forever it may seem
It will be forever with me
I'll be by your side.
Your shoulder for you to cry
To come home with the news
Of what has happened to you.
Whether it be bad or good,
I want to know all that you do

Verse 2:

The tears will soon stop
And the smile will come again.
And will we be ready?
To take steps we never planned.
Someday it will come,
The day of suffering.
And the first words that they'll say.
Is momma I love you
And the last thing you hear
Is honey have no fear
And we'll wake up in the morning.
With tear drops in our eyes.

I think I did it.

I think I wrote song lyrics....

Now all I have to do is do the chords that I want and the title....
CRAP!!!

Title:

A Life to Live By.

Verse 1:

Darling come closer.
I know it's going to be alright.
Let's not worry about tomorrow.
Let's just worry about tonight.
And as forever it may seem
It will be forever with me
I'll be by your side.
Your shoulder for you to cry
To come home with the news
Of what has happened to you.
Whether it be bad or good,
I want to know all that you do

Chorus:

As I lay my head,
Next to you in bed.
I want to get lost in your eyes.
With your lips as my guide.
Come and hold my hand,
As we travel through this wonderland.
For the first time,
As husband and bride.

Verse 2:

The tears will soon stop
And the smile will come again.
And will we be ready?
To take steps we never planned.
Someday it will come,
The day of suffering.
And the first words that they'll say.
Is momma I love you
And the last thing you hear
Is honey have no fear
And we'll wake up in the morning.
With tear drops in our eyes.

Chorus:

As I lay my head,
Next to you in bed.
I want to get lost in your eyes.
With your lips as my guide.
Come and hold my hand,
As we travel through this wonderland.
For the first time,
As husband and bride.

Deeper Introductions

Hi, my name is Gilbert Lamoureux, but you already knew that didn't you?

I've been called Gilbert, Gil, Gilly, Gil Guapo, Guap, Gib, and Gibby and many more. Take your pick, to tell you the truth even if you don't use one of those I'll probably still look your way.

You might have seen me in the hallways of my school, with white hair with a dash of pink. Always smiling and more or less listening to music ear buds in and all that jazz.

But if you pay close attention you'll notice that I rarely touch door handles and if I do I immediately look for hand sanitizer, or a sink to wash my hands in.
I'm a germ-a-phobe.

It started a while ago. And it's getting worse. So if I ever use germ-x after handling things from you or anyone else, please don't take offense.

It's hard to keep wearing a smile when people are sickened by you.

So my hands are broken and cut open in so many places. But it doesn't mean that I still won't use them.

I try to make people smile. I've seen too many tears. I've seen to many sad faces. And sadly I've caused some of those people to be sad.

I'll always put my thing last if I know that someone I know is hurt or sad. Even if there's nothing I can do.

But that's just who I am. Nothing more, nothing less. I'm just Gilbert, or better know by some as Slender Auditore.

And I'm pleasured to meet your acquaintance.

Help!

Day 1:

I need help, I've lost my way.

I thought I was on the airline to Paris, France but the piolet of the airplane has just announced that we'll be heading to Vik í Mýrdal, Iceland.

They closed the doors, the plane has already taken off. I don't have enough money to buy anther ticket to go to France. Once I get to the airport.

I only studied French, I don't know Icelandic phrases, I only know French. Someone help me please.

Day 30:

I've been dumped on this island and I have no idea what's going on in this weird Country. It's been 30 days since I was gyped into going here instead of Paris. The people are nice here though, I met one man who helps translate Icelandic to English, he's also been helping me learn words and phrases. He also helped me find a job so that I can earn money to try to get back to Paris. Any way I have too go my job starts in a bit. As they say here,
sjá þig fljótlega

Day 154:

Halló aftur,

það hefur verið 154 dagar síðan ég hef lent á Íslandi

Ég þekki svolítið á tungumálinu, nóg til að komast í kringum samt.

Mig langaði til að sjá Eiffel turninn, en ég fékk að sjá Mýrdalsjökli.

Það er gott og logn hér, Ég ætla að vera um hríð lengur.

Ég ætla ekki að fara til Parísar, ég ætla að vera að búa hér. Bless allir.

Time to Talk

Let's get real everyone, I'm no poet. And I didn't really keep my promise in my first post where I said that I would make you laugh and cry. (I might have with some of you)

But I did get you to think, (Hopefully). Hopefully I got you to think about what your heart is saying, and about to think about something besides the weight of the world.

But this isn't the end of my blog, No this is the end of the beginning, and the beginning of the middle!

(I go that last little bit from The Lord of the Rings: Fellowship play, look it up it's pretty funny)

Any way thank you all for staying on this journey so far, and hey if you'd like we could go even further down the road. But if not then that's alright as well.

Thanks for everything guys!

I Remember

I remember,

I remember when I first met her. She was wearing a blue sheet and jeans. He was right next to her. I remember our first date. How awkward it was, but I also remember the smile that it ended on.

I.remember how she would smile everyone we would hang out, just us. I remember her birthday party, how I feel out of the chair pretending to die, then almost dying.

I remember sleeping in her couch, heck I still do. It's a really comfy couch. I remember shopping with her. You got some shirts and I got another knife.

And I remember I asked her to close her eyes, and out minds have been aloof ever since.

I remember when and where we met math class, I hated him cause he was too happy.

I remember going to your house to fun Ragnorok. I remember when he and I first started driving, he was so scared for his life when I drove. I remember going on random adventures with him.

I remember when we tried out for the team, and we both got in. I remember Mama Mia Medley.

And I remember both of us crying our eyes out, when I didn't feel important, and when he broke up with her.

I remember these memories very well because it defines our relationships with each other. My relationship with my girlfriend Vwin, and my relationship with my best friend Elder R. I will always treasure them when they leave, and I will always treasure these memories.